Earlier this year I shared my journey was going to be centered around BOLDNESS! As many of you know I'm pretty transparent but I want to add boldness to my story. How? Not sure but I know my Father JESUS has a plan for this journey.
With that said here's a recap of my day:
I woke up with anxiety and feeling overwhelmed. I remember these feelings as it was yesterday! When we brought Max home I literally had a meltdown. Cried for hours and it lasted for a few weeks. Many like to call that postpartum depression or "the blues". There was nothing blue about that! Anyhoot as I showered today - which was not easy- I just kept crying and crying and crying! Partly because I was in pain but the other because the enemy was trying to take me back. After I cried, prayed and a big hug from Alex I slapped on makeup and quickly started to feel better.
We headed slowly to Noah's appointment. We learned all our hard work is paying off and he's growing in a positive direction.
We came home and I passed out. But prior I started to experience pain in my incision and bleeding. Luckily it's all part of recovery. I'm learning this csection is more challenging than my first but I just keep praying for healing. I don't like to think or speak negative over any situations I'm in. Words are powerful therefore I say CHALLENGING!
The remainder of my day consisted of nursing, pumping (another full bag), discomfort from cracked nipples, reading and texting with friends. Alex has been AMAZING and has asked me a million times to REST! LOL! So as I lay in bed writing this that's exactly what I'm doing.
I'm not one to take pain pills but they sure have been helping! All I know is these past few days I've really humbled myself and taking it all in. Dinner was brought to us and dessert. Boy those brownies were DELISH! I know not the healthiest but I have to eat in order to breastfeed HA!! Tmrw I plan on getting back on Shakeology and MAX COMES HOME!!!!
Overall today was a good day and although it started off unpleasant I'm going to bed with a FULL HEART! Noah has been such a joy! He makes me happy, gives me hope and being a mother of two is beyond what I imagine. God surely has His hands on my life. I have nothing to complain about when I think of everything He's given me.
Therefore I will embrace my recovery. I will push through the pain. I will cry if needed. I will absolutely keep SMILING through it all.
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