Day 11

Today started off great and full of inspiration.  From my time with #CoffeeandJesus to building up my Coaches and challengers to getting ready to start exercising.  From that moment everything went down hill.   We never made it to our walk and I just completely shut down. Locked myself in my room, cried, nursed Noah and fell asleep for three hours.  I knew days like this would happen but I just wasn't prepared mentally.  Max was whiny and needing me (Terrific Twos), house was a mess, popcorn spilled everywhere and everyone except Alex was crying.  I'm sure you can vision the chaos! Haha!  

 I've heard it a thousand times:  What until you have 2,3,4,5 kids...it gets worst!  Sure things change and I've seen our home already shifting but I refuse to speak negative in our home.   

I'm sharing this with you because it's part of my journey and to let you know I have my days too.  Nothing is PERFECT nor will I ever act like things are.  Being in recovery the past few days has taught me many things.  One is PATIENCE.  I guess you can said today I had none.   When I woke up Alex knew that I just needed to be.  As the boys slept we had a nice quiet lunch without all the chaos.  It's been awhile since that has happened.  It brought me to a humble place because  he has been so gracious to me these past few weeks.  We work very well as a team and this afternoon he was a team player.  

As I sit here writing this this are finally calm in our home.  Am I bummed that I didn't get to exercise?  No.  There's always tomorrow.  And the main lesson of today was to REST IN HIM.  

I'm giving myself grace today knowing I gave my best.  I didn't let my mood ruin my whole day.  The boys are alive.  I'm forgiven.  

Tomorrow brings a new day with new challenges, new memories and new lessons.   

Finalizing our wall as a family was perfect because now we have our family rules posted. Everyday we will be reminded of what our family means ❤️