My Year in Review

2014 has been a year of many laughs, adventures, challenges, growth and celebrations!  Past few days I have been reflecting on how fast this year has gone by.  It seems like yesterday we were at church and praying over our 2014 year.  Now with just a few hours left we will soon embark on a new season: 2015.  The Lord has been really good to me and my family.  He's given me hope and has taught me many lessons on life.  Most of all I been able to grow into a stronger woman of God.  He's taken me on a journey that I can't even fathom!  Despite the attacks from the enemy along the way I always knew how to overcome.  The enemy is out to hurt, lie and destroy!  But I'm a woman of God and it takes no bound on my life.   Yes I've faced challenges and had baggage that needed to be released but I stand today in FREEDOM! 

Part of my baggage that held me down at times was approval - seeking approval of others.  Seeking approval in my relationships, how I looked, motherhood and just doubting my worth.  I didn't wake up and become that person.  It stemmed from my childhood.  Abandoned from my parents, dealing with emotional and physical abuse, poor relationships, alcohol, sucicide thoughts and just not feeling any worth.  When we don't deal with our baggage or take responsibility it will affect you.  Even leave a black hole in your heart.  But this year God removed all those layers, healed my wounds and forgave me of my sins.  I had the honor of being baptized with Alex.  I attended a weekend Encounter with God.  All personal choices to better myself.  I DESERVED IT!   

I remember writing my goals for 2014 and one was to live FEARLESSLY.  I can honestly say today I no longer live in fear. I know who I am in Christ.  I'm a Daughter of the Most High.  Now does that mean my life is perfect? No!  I had to learn a lot.  I learned to take accountability when I was wrong.  I learned to forgive - not hold grudges.  Learned that motherhood can take a toll on me and it's OK to have bad days.  Learned to honor my husband in the small things.  Learned to create boundaries.  Accept people for who they are.  I learned my strength is not defined by my abs.  I've embraced modesty.  Learned to accept myself for who I am!  

A few of my favorite milestones: Ran the Nike Half Marathon six months pregnant, became an Ambassador for Bao Bei, became debt free, grew as a Fitness Coach, my marriage is stronger, I'm a mother of two boys, bought a new home, I have some amazing friends, been awarded for my stewardship in the community, my relationship with Jesus is flourishing and I wake up everyday feeling JOYFUL - despite lack of sleep HA!! 

I'm not sure what God has in store for 2015 but I do know that I plan on being BOLD in everything I do.  Glorifying God in my actions. Encouraging others to have HOPE - even save a few lives!  Spread the Gospel in my lifestyle.  It's who I am!  I'm not hear to seek approval of man or to gloat but I'm here to SPEAK LIFE and be the light!   

I will be bold in my running. Achieve 2015 miles. Run a few marathons.

I will be bold in my role as a mother.  Pray over my boys. Take pride in my appearance. See them worship in church. 

I will be bold in marriage.  Date nights. Honor Alex. Embrace the roles of being a Proverbs 31 woman. 

I will be bold in my finances.  Remain debt free.  Stick to budget. Live like no one else. 

I will be bold in my career. Achieve 2 Star Diamond. Mentor my Coaches. Grow my fitness ministry. Start a mommy & me group in Los Banos.  Write a book. Active Blogger. 

I will be bold in my relationship with Jesus. Save lives. Pray for others. Spread His word. Less of me more of Him. 

As I had my last CoffeeandJesus bible study of 2014 my devotional ended with this:

Let your life be modest and reserved, your manner courteous, your admonitions friendly, your forgiveness willing, your promises true, your speech wise, and your actions unifying. 

Proverbs 31:25-31

A perfect way to begin 2015 ~ I am READY! JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL!!! 

Happy 2nd Birthday Maximus

Son, you've brought so much JOY into my life and your fathers.  The minute you were born and I heard your cry I knew my life had changed for the better.  God truly revealed His goodness by choosing me as your mother.  The past two years have flown by.  We've laughed, cried, overcame challenges but most of all God was in the midst of it all.

I want you to know that I love you more and more everyday.  Everything I do is to better myself as a mother and love for your father.  We have a bond that no one can break.  Some might say you're spoiled.  Some might say you're a mamas boy.  But the truth is you are a mamas boy... You are MINE!  I'll never stop hugging you.  I'll never stop you from expressing your feelings. I'll never stop letting you cuddle with me especially when you have a boo boo.  I'll never tell you you can't do something.  I'll always be the #1 woman in your life.  One day you'll get married and I'll have to let you go.  But for now I'll embrace every smile, hug, I love you's and the special word: MOMMY!    Maximus, just know that I love you with all my heart and I'll continue to work hard as your mother.  I might make mistakes on the way, I might cry at times but one thing remains...my FAITH!  I'll Never Give Up!  It's because of God we are brought together.  

Never stop being yourself because you bring so much JOY to our lives.  Mommy and Daddy will always there for you but when we are not just know God is.  He's in your heart.  He will never leave nor forsake you. Our prayer is you'll continue the generation of serving God.  Your daddy and I are the first in our family to break many chains and serve God.  We pray you'll do the same with your family someday.  Until then, we will continue to be the examples and show His love in you.  

Keep smiling!  Keep being YOU!   Keep being the funny child you are.  You have so much to give to this world and only God knows.  

As we celebrate your life every year we want to give you the true meaning.  We won't promise you'll have a big party or be given luxurious gifts.  But what we will promise is we will celebrate you!  Our memories as a family we be carried on and one day you'll give back to your children.  You'll always have candles to blow out, you'll always have balloons, you'll always be prayed for and mommy will always cook your favorite meal.   Most of all Mommy & Daddy will always be there to celebrate with you! 

Cheers to the TERRIFIC TWOS in Jesus Name!

Proverbs 22:6 

Soul Sunday

After spending a week without Alex and what not I wanted to start the new week by being Unplugged.  Started by going back to the basics: Soul Sunday.  No Facebook, IG, emails and limited texting. Gives me a time to also focus and be in the moment without my face in my phone or telling my family "Hold on, let me finish posting!"  

We all slept in, Max slept solid in his bed and it was nice to just wake up and not have a TO DO list.  Enjoyed coffee with no interruptions, tackled Alex's gym so he can start his regime today.  Back to the FIX he goes!  It was a nice moment when we were done to look back and give Thanks to God for blessing him with a gym.  For years he's wanted his own space and now he has it.   

We enjoyed a nice, healthy lunch at Black Bear diner.  It has become our spot.  We both had a salad (YES YOU CAN EAT HEALTHY while dining out), he got a turkey club and we just sat, talked and enjoyed the face to face conversations.  It's so funny how simple that is we can easily take for granted.  On vacation I learned my family deserves all of me even through the hustle and bustle. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be who I am today.  

Family First. 

Afterwards we headed to Target to get our Christmas tree. This year we decided to go artificial - Big & Fake HA!  Plus they were 50% off.  Alex wanted the "pine smell" so I got a candle to give it that twist. We even stuck to our budget!  While Max took a nap we were able to watch our shows, set the tree up and enjoy some quality time together. 

 I LOVE our tree!  We will be decorating on Thanksgiving. 

I even got in the baking mood.  I whipped up my Shakeo and got to it!   I made pumpkin bars - 21 Day Fix approved via Pinterest.  

Here's the Recipe:

Serves 12

Ingredients:

1 Cup of pumpkin

4 Tbsp. of almond butter (or peanut butter)

1/4 cup of honey

1 tsp.of vanilla extract

2 tsp. of pumpkin spice

1/2 tsp. of baking soda

1/4 tsp. of sea salt

Directions:

1. Preheat oven to 350

2. Coat 8×8 baking dish with spray (coconut oil)

3. Mix all ingredients in bowl

4. pour into baking dish

5. Bake for 25 minutes or until firm; take knife and make sure it comes out clean

6. cut into 12 bars

optional toppings; whip cream, honey and pecans or whatever your heart desires

21 Day fix calculations for one bar

.08 of a green container {not worth counting}

2 oil tsp.

1 honey tsp. (pg15)

 

Although they didn't look like the picture on Pinterest they were still good.  We enjoyed a piece with a glass of milk...YUMMY!!!!

Overall it was was a perfect day!  Filled with Joy, Happiness and Health.  The start of our holiday season.  Just remember wherever you are in your life be sure to slow down, unplug and enjoy the simple things in life.  Quality time doesn't have to be grand.  It can be as simple as being together outside, picking out a Christmas tree or enjoying a cup of coffee.  Our goal is to raise our boys in a home where there is always love, laughter and memories.  We want them to always remember and know the simple things in life. 

As I enjoy my coffee and knowing I have a TO DO list I'm energized, motivated and refreshed to continue the journey!  I'm thankful God has allowed me to share my heart with hopes it inspires someone today. 

We have to slow the rhythm of rush in our lives so the best of who we are can emerge - The Best Yes

God Bless

Coffee and JESUS

I'm really seeing things differently and how God is using me in many ways.  This trip has been opening my eyes to motherhood, my career and LIFE!   As you may have read I left cards for Alex to open everyday and getting a THANK YOU text from him has blessed me.  I did it because I want to honor him and let him know that I'm always going to show gratitude towards him.  I usually don't like to travel without him but he gave me his blessing.  He knew this trip would not only benefit me but for our home.  For that I'm grateful. 

I'm also having great conversations with my friend on motherhood.  She has been inspiring to me.  It's a beautiful gift when you can learn from another mother.  Get to share tips, challenges and align it with our faith.  Not only have we been encouraging eah other in motherhood but also being Fit Mamas.  Giving our best to ourselves - eating, working out, shopping and sticking to budget and more.  It's true when they say WOMEN EMPOWER WOMEN!  

Sharing this time with Max has been a joy.  I have to admit I was nervous at first but it's seriously been a Joy!  Max has been adjusting, playing well with his buddy and we just been soaking all the one on one time.   He's growing into a little man and I know when Baby Noah comes he's going to such a good BIG brother. I want to continue to grow as a mother.  Have more patience, create memories, have a bond that he'll forever cherish and in hopes one day he'll marry a Godly woman.   

When we were shopping I wanted to find something that symbolizes our trip together.   I found this bracelet:

Lastly I'm been learning more about my purpose in life. I have many visions and I'm going to continue to align them with God.  He leads the path to my life.  He is my leader, provider and teacher!    I have one BIG goal that I want to accomplish as a Coach before 2014 ends.  I have work to do when I get back.  Seeing my team work hard only pushes me me to do better.  I'm blessed to be their Coach and Mentor.  I even purchased a new personal develoment book: A new Bible!   

So as much as this trip has been a blessing it's really showing me things.  There is ALWAYS room for improvement, my family is my WHY and I want to continue to inspire others.  GIVE HOPE!   

FAITH ~ HOPE ~ LOVE

Stronng & Fearless 

Is It Possible?

Is It Possible?



A article I wrote back in 2013 for Modern Latina.  Never Give Up mamas!

Home Sweet Home

As we embark on our new chapter together I couldn't be more blessed to be doing LIFE with Alex!  Last night over dinner we had a great conversation about our faith, marriage and where God has us.  As much as I loved having him home we both knew going back to work today would be hard yet rewarding at the same time.  Why?  Because he loves his job, he's able to provide for us, I'm able to stay home and we know our move to Los Banos was to better our future for Max and Noah.   

We been together for 14 years, endured many challenges, seen Gods goodness and been able to grow together has husband and wife.   We have also been in debt many times, been debt free once before but through it all we knew ONE DAY we wanted to move out to the country and have a slower pace life.   When we started our home buying process we were already embedded in Dave Ramsey teachings.  Alex just got a new promotion and my Beachbody business was taking off.  So we knew the time was right.  Of course we wanted to stay closer to San Jose but once we realized Morgan Hill/Gilroy was out of budget we had our hearts on Los Banos.  Like I mentioned before we were living the DaveRamsey way. We paid off many credit cards, had our emergency savings and started to get better at spending AKA BUDGET!   We were in a good place.  

We searched and searched until we found our home!  The minute I walked in I knew!  I was already visioning our family sitting around the family place, our sons playing in the back yard but most importantly I felt the peace.  Peace knowing we will be able to have the life we been working towards.  Of course the million dollar question was: What about the commute!   Sure we knew it would change things but just like anything else in life you make choices.   Choices that work best for your family.  We had naysayers, we got negative feedback but in return we got many blessings, support and prayers from friends and family.   We also had discernment from God - He's the ultimate decision maker in our home.   

The day we signed the final paperwork was a moment I'll never forget.  We smiled, giggled and just embraced the moment that all our hard work as TEAM ZAPIEN has paid off!   I know personally Alex was beyond excited.  He was and is living out his dreams: A father, provider, has a stay at home wife and sons.  Trust me when I say this is a dream come true. When we were dating he always talked about this and here he is.  He never stopped praying and never gave up hope.

So, the reason I share this with you is because I want to give HOPE to others.  Always follow your dreams. Do what is best for your family. Now a team player with your spouse.  Be willing to grow together.  Leave a legacy for your children.  Compromise.  Never give up faith.  TRUST IN GOD!   

That is our formula and it has gotten us to many places especially since we have centered God in our marriage.  It's POSSIBLE!

Now that Alex has left for work and I sit here in silence I'm thankful for the decisions we have made. I know my boys are set financially, my marriage has become stronger from this process and I can rest assure that Alex will do what he needs to do to provide and be the man of the house.  Sure I'll have moments where I'm sad or feel lonely but that the beauty of this.  Gives me an opportunity to make new friends, explore and allow God to use me.  My arms are wide open and ready for God to use TEAM ZAPIEN in Los Banos. 

Thank You JESUS ❤️

Sfrong & Fearless 

Nike Women's Half Marathon

After months of training, many miles of running and walking, facing personal challenges and expecting my second baby I accomplished a big goal - Running the Nike Half Marathon!  

I spent this past weekend in San Francsico celebrating LOVE with Alex and friendship with my Sole Sistas. We attended the expo (slightly disappointed - will share later), went shopping at the Nike store, lunch in Union Square, manicures, rode in a limo to The Cliff House for a romantic dinner and RELAXED!  It was a weekend I'll forever cherish.  

As race day approached I woke up with a sound mind even at 4:00am (race started at 6:30am). I got in my normal routine: coffee, worship music, bible study and prayer.  I waited for The Lord to guide me and I fully trusted Him in this process.  I got dressed, taped up and we were headed to the race.  Slowly my nerves started to kick in and once we arrived at the corral I lost it.  As I said my goodbyes to Alex I stated to cry.  I don't normally cry before a race but this time it was different.  Especially since I'm 6 months pregnant!   My fear was quitting, stress on my baby and being the last person to finish.  But Alex gathered us in prayer.  Prayed for our health and to enjoy each mile in Gods ways!  He knew I needed to hear that.  I said my goodbyes and off I went!  We waited 45 minutes for our corral to take off.  I was getting antsy but once we ran off I was good.  The first mile was a hill!  But since I trained for them I figured why not - GO FOR IT! 

My plan was to run the first half of the race music free. I wanted to soak up the scenery, hear the people cheering and just focus on each mile.  By time I reached the 5k mark I was feeling good.  Running a good pace and Baby Noah was good.  I had to stop at every bathroom station but it was a good break for me.  Each station was 2 miles apart - there was no way I could hold my bladder HA!  As I reached the 10k mark things started to change.   I got a major cramp in my belly.  Nothing I have experienced.  All I could think of it was contractions.  Stress on the baby!   I didn't freak out.  I just started to walk, pray and told myself that if it occurred by the next aid station I was going to stop.  Had a mile to go. But once I reached the station the pain was gone.  Praise God!  I looked up in the sky, mist falling on my face and said out loud THANK YOU JESUS!   I started to jog, walk, jog, walk and I found my pace again.   Then mile 10 approached with another pain.  This time in my right leg.  Come to find out it was my sacitica acting up.   Mind you mile 10 was 1,000 yards and UPHILL!  This was not your average hill.  I felt like is was David VS Goliath.  The hill was Goliath!  I had received a text from Alex and he gave me words of encouragement.  One of my favorite worship songs was playing and I told myself SLOW & STEADY!   I embraced every step, every incline and again I was in a place where God was pushing me through.  He even sent an Angel my way. A labor and delivery nurse.  She asked how far I was and told me to be careful and keep up the good work.  You see God aligned everything for this hill.  Why should I worry or be in fear?  Yes it was hard but just like life you keep going!   By the time I reached the bottom I still had the leg cramp.  I was in pain and wanted to hurry up.  I jogged what felt more like walking.  Let me just say this was all a humbling experience.  Before Baby Noah I was running at a 9:30 pace and now it was 12:45 pace.  If you're a runner you know what I'm saying!   So as I waddled along my mind was going in a different direction.  I wanted to quit!  My body was tired, I was in pain and I was DONE!  But once again God came through.  I got a text from Max saying GO MOMMY GO!  I literally starting crying.  I'm sure the runner next to me thought I was weird but I didn't care.  This was not just a race. I didn't just show up and run.  It meant a lot to me to finish and in hopes one day my children will know the adversity I faced.  So, I got my game face on and RAN!   Whatever I had left I ran my heart out!  I visioned Alex, Max and Noah at the finish line.  I visioned crossing the finish line and giving praise to God.   I just visioned my life and all that I have faced. 

I approached mile 13 and HALLEJUAH!  I was almost done!!!   I noticed the crowds were small so I started to look for Alex and I spotted him from afar.  I made my way through and literally ran into his arms.  My body was shaking, I could barely breathing and I was crying so hard I couldn't let him go.  His hug was what I needed to finish.  I'm not sure what I would have done if I didn't see him.

Watch Clip: http://youtu.be/q6a2vQfMgDw

At this point I had one more challenge to face and that was CROSS THE FINISH LINE!!!!  And I DID! THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!

Aside from the marathon being in San Francisco with hills and running pregnant it was truly one of the most physical challenges I've faced. The weird things is I LOVED every moment!!!  I've learned in this past year that I should and will honor God with my body.  For it is Him that gets me through.  I've always had a meaning for running but after this race I believe my new meaning has changed.  I'm a RUNNER who loves Jesus!  I'm not the type to just show up to a race.  I believe each medal is earned.  Race day to me is the celebration.  Even if I have to face Goliath.  I'll still OVERCOME!!!   Jesus is the King of my Heart! 

http://youtu.be/G3OTNMoe26g. This song got me through the past few miles.  Listen to the lyrics. 

Would I do this race again? YES!!!   What I didn't like about the race was the expo.  It was small, hot and overrated.  The swag is super cute!  The Tiffany's necklace is pretty.  The memories will last a lifetime. 

Life is a marathon and I am literally running it everyday.  I'm not the same person I was on race day.  My vision has changed.  I now have a new meaning of running.  My friendships are stronger.  My marriage is a testimony. My sons give me new meaning of motherhood.  My love for Jesus is stronger.  

I am ME!  I'll always be running towards a goal.  There will be spectators.  There will be many Goliaths. But one thing remains:  2 Timothy 4:7

Coffee and Jesus

It's been a sweet morning.  Even though I only got a few hours of sleep I'm still feeling joyous.   This morning is extra sweet because Alex is home today.  As I was studying I glanced over and seen Max and Alex bonding. There's mornings are rare.  A sweet blessing. 

I just LOVE when I get in my study and God gives me the exact words!  He's always on time.   It's also refreshing to give my burdens to him, ask him for guidance and thank him for all that He's done for my life. I woke up with a burden on my heart but I knew before I could move forward in my day I needed to give it to God.  

I'm not perfect, I'm tired at times but one things remains: I'm always JOYFUL!  Life's too short to be worried or live in fear.  Been there done that.  I want to wake up everyday and find something good to celebrate.  Even when the seasons change - it's just a sign that I'm moving forward.  Sure some moments might be challenging but it's part of the process.   I'll continue to dust myself off. God has great plans for my life and everyday He gets me one step closer.  GLORY TO HIM ❤️

There will always be people saying things about me and maybe in the past I would have let it affect me to the point of focusing on it.  But now I just pray for them.  I can honestly say I know who I am.  I've worked really hard to get where I am today.  I'm PROUD of the woman I am today!  If Jesus brought it to me no man can take it away.  

How does one get to this point?  Well, I wish I had the answers.  But what I can tell you is what has worked for me:

*Prayer

*Study Gods word

*Journaling

*Walking in His ways

*Fellowship with others

*Praying for others

*Surrending my worries

*Knowing Gods plan for my life

*Letting Go

*Putting my flesh to the side

God is my #1 leader, mentor and counselor.  Almost all the time I go to Him for clarity.  I say almost because I'm human and sometimes I do things on my own.  It only leads me to frustration, stress and drama that I created to self.  I've learned and still do - the hard way.  Remember I'm not perfect. HA!

I always like to think and encourage others by telling them to NEVER GIVE UP!  Your mountain may be big to climb but just know there is always VICTORY!   Have faith.  Believe in yourself!  Surround yourself with others that encourage you. Always be willing to learn.  Thank JESUS daily!

We all have a choice - what choices are you going to make?   

Strong & Fearless ❤️

Our Totschool Journey

Since I'm a little behind on my blogging and I usually write my thoughts down in a journal before I type it out.   This will be more of a journal entry but I'll end with my thoughts currently.  ENJOY! 

Today, September 8, was Maximus's 1st day of homeschooling AKA Totschool. We started our day with prayer and devotional.  I'm so glad that we did because after Max had breakfast he started to get fussy.  Of course part of MY prayer was we would all be patient.  Seeing how this is new to both of us I wanted our experience to go smoothly.  We began our activities slowly just so Max could get used to the new flow.  Plus I wanted to see his reactions.  I did not want to be a drill sargeant mom/teacher.  He gravitated to the magnetic ABC letters and the chalkboard.  I could see the excitement on his face!  He was curious but also eager to see what it was all about.   He really loved the chalk!  Of course his art work was all scribbles but at least his motor skills were being used.   Alex was home that day so it was a blessing to see him be part of the experience.  As time went on we did puzzles, sat at the table and did a few things.  Dot art, coloring and stickers.  I started to notice Max was either getting bored or his attention span was running low.  So we headed to the library!   A fun time we all had! 

I chose this path because for a few reasons:  Daycare was out of our budget, we are planning a big move and I wanted to be able to bond more before the baby arrives.  For a few weeks leading up to our final decision, I had been in prayer about my role as a mother.   What was my purpose?  How can I serve my children and honor God?  God just kept telling putting Motherhood on my heart.  I couldn't figure out what it was.  I talked it over with Alex, my friends and mentor to see if they knew what God was telling me.  About a week or so after I was in prayer and it hit me.  TEACH MAX!  Now I ponder the idea of homeschool before for various reasons but I didn't think it was happen now!  At first I laughed and then I was like YES! That's exactly what you have been telling me all along.   

At that point I need a "plan."  If you know me I'm all about planning!   I did research online.  Found some neat ideas on Pinterest.  Started following other moms for inspiration on Instagram.  After all that I was feeling kinda overwhelmed!  So many activities, toddlers his age were way advance and did I really know what I was doing!   I sat in prayer and ask God to give me a vision of this journey.  I discussed with Alex and made sure this is something we were both in agreement with.  Amen for support!   I then procecced to the next step: BUDGET!   Again the internet has many cool fun ideas but I could not and would not break my bank for this.   I found a few things at Target Dollar Spot:  Magnetic letters, foam shapes, color books, crayons, chalk and color trays.  Then I went to Lakewood Shore Learning Center - this place is HEAVEN!  They literally have everything you need to start a school!  Again, BUDGET was the focus.  I found a toddler activity book, dot art, calendar and a few other things.    Lastly, I headed to the Goodwill for new books and puzzles. During this process I stated to get an idea of how it was going to work in our home.  I didn't want a strict schedule, no drill Sargent mom and most importantly I just wanted Max to learn a few things and have fun!   As I mentioned earlier toddlers his age were advanced but I placed it in my heart that it was OK!   I was not going to compare my son to another.  Maximus is a smart boy and I know what he likes and dislikes.  God created him just the way he is.  My role was and is to simply encourage him daily and tell him "Mommy Loves You."  

If we had to indicate a schedule it would be this:

Mondays - Play day (Alex is home)

Tuesdays thru Thursdays - Tot school

Fridays - Field Trip day 

We began our day around 8:00am with breakfast, prayer, play time, learning activity and wrap things up around 11:45am.  Lunch and then naptime.  It's a go with the flow schedule.  The key is to have fun, laugh and learn a few things. 

Do we always stick to the schedule? No especially since we are in the process of moving our lives are upside down HA!   Lately we have just been going with the flow.  I've noticed over the weeks he's learning, he understands certain things. Like he'll point to the car, giraffe and colors.  Although he only says a few words he can communicate in other ways. And that makes me PROUD!  

So, whether you homeschool or your children go to day care I believe it's our role as mothers to provide as much love, encouragement and prayer to our children.  They are the future!  I know that God has big plans for Max and it's my job to make sure I give my best to him on a daily basis.   This experience has blessed me but also has made me a stronger mother.  I want to continue to give my children my very best.  Continue to show them the true meaning of life.  Allow them to experience things on their own.  To allow them to be their own person.  Let us know compare ourselves to other mothers.  But instead let us encourage each other, help each out, create memories together and show our children that we are their heroes.  

Lastly, remember your home is your ministry.  Each of us are in homeschool.  We learn every single day.

Trader Joes Pumpkin Bread

 Every Fall I always start my baking season with Trader Joes Pumpkin Bread.  It's so tasty, easy to make and Coach Alex really loves it.  One of the sweet things I like to do for him.  This past weekend he worked late so I waited for him before I took the first bite. 

The ingridents are minimal and takes about 15 minutes to prepare.  The only thing I switched up was the vegetable oil and replaced with coconut oil.   There's no high fructose sugar or hidden chemicals.  I like to say this bread is 21 DAY APPROVED!  It would be considered a YELLOW container. 

After you mix ingridents (water, two eggs, coconut oil and pumpkin mix), bake at 350 degrees for 60 minutes.   Trust me, it's WORTH THE WAIT!   The bonus is your kitchen will smell DELISH! 

Even Maximus approved

As you can see if you are following me on Instagram or FB (FitnessCoachAngela) I like to keep our meals simple.  I'm a busy  mom and I don't have plenty of time to spend in the kitchen.  Eating healthy does not have to be extememe or boring.  Learn how to read labels and swap out things.  For instance instead of vegetable oil use coconut oil.  Instead of white flour use whole wheat.  Instead of regular milk use almond milk.  

Stay tuned for our Turkey Meat Chili recipe.

Strong & Fearless ❤️

Thunder in the Bay

Last night I attended my church's yearly conference: Thunder in the Bay.  It was POWERFUL!  The message from our Pastor was a game changer.  I never knew how IMPORTANT worship is.  He really nailed every importance down of Worship. 

Then I read my devotional study this morning and it was aligned with last night message.  

Worship - Discipline - Self Control

These are very important factors in my life.  If I'm not on track then I know exactly what will happen....I'll stumble.  I'll get caught up in the worlds thinking and I start to feel defeated.  It's my own fault. 

Apart from me you can do nothing - John 15:15

He makes things new everyday.  But what am I going to do with it?  Am I going to play the victim? Am I going to have self control?  We can all make changes and developing new habits that will bring us the life we desire.  It's going to take work!  Nothing is handed to us.  We have to stop thinking "we deserve it all"!   

What we do need is HAPPINESS, PEACE, FORGIVENESS, LOVE and GRACE!  Imagine living a life with those blessings.  Our homes, marriages, children, careers if our hearts/mind were full of those blessings.  

I know personally I want to WORSHIP & HONOR God in my marriage, my home, my role as a leader, as a runner and most importantly as a Woman of God.  I would rather be poor but rich in Gods love.  I would rather live in a small home but know my children are following Gods plan.  I would rather change one person life than have a big head from success. 

Yes, some might not understand but for those who do think/pray about this.  Last night a powerful message was given and it's aligned with my devotional this morning.  God is speaking through me to help you.  I pray this post inspires you and simple let God change your life!  

Strong & Fearless ❤️

Do You Need a Heart Transplant

Good Morning and Happy Thursday, 

Simply just enjoy waking up before it's light out and starting my day!   

His blessings have already poured out!  A good word and quiet time.

Jesus Loves me unconditionally ~ I am Valuable ~ He has a purpose for my life ❤️

I'll continue to stand on His promises and continue to grow in His ways.  If I'm building my identity on anything else (career, material things, my spouse, children, approval, etc) I'll always struggling with being insecure. 

When I read that I thought WOW!  It's so true because I used to live my life that way.  Angry, jealous and always looking for more in the wrong places.  Once I gave that up I started to live a life of peace - Peace in my heart ❤️ Sure people may upset me but I no longer carry that burden.  I'm not defined by status in my career.  I won't live my life for my children and give myself nothing. 

It's easy to get caught up in what the world think, says and does but once you know who you are in Christ you'll have a easier time making decisions.  We have to remember this is our walk - not theirs! Yes, people might get me angry, yes I want a bigger house, yes I want this or that but when my flesh takes over I know sooner or later that is not who I am.   God is good at convicting me HA!  

So yes I do watch my tongue (words) and actions but at the end of day those negative feelings are gone - Sometimes it can take awhile.  Why carry that anger in my heart?  It's only hurting me.   

As the word says: The fear of human opinion disables, trusting in God protects you from that - Proverbs 29:25

And that's the beauty of being a child of God - He PROTECTS ME!   I'm choosing to live a life for God.  That's my quality of life.  Joy, Peace, Forgiveness, Happiness, Prosperity, Grace and Humblness.   

They do cost but are you willing to give up your ways? 

So, challenge yourself today:

A harsh tongue reveals and angry heart VS An encouraging tongue reveals a happy heart 

Which one are you going to choose today? 

Prayer:  Lord, I pray for whoever is reading this that it'll touch their heart one way or another.  Maybe they are struggling with what the world thinks.  Maybe they have anger in their heart.  Maybe they just need to feel your comfort. I pray you wrap your loving arms around them and show them your gentleness.  Only you know their heart's desires.  We live in an ugly world but when we walk with you we see the beauty of life.  Let them walk today in happiness and smile.  Let them not be worried.  Let them know who you are there for them.  That they are protected!  We thank you for this beautiful day.  In Jesus name we pray, Amen. 

Book Review

When I started reading, The Confident Heart, I was an overwhelmed, tensed, tired and just getting by gal.  I knew I had a purpose and I was living it - motherhood, leader, wife, woman of God but I was falling short everyday!   When I would read a chapter from the book it was speaking to me.  LOUD & CLEAR!  It was like Renee, the author, was talking to me personally. I would cry, fall to my knees and through it all God always revealed a message to me.  

It's funny how much junk we carry in our hearts without even knowing it.  Even though I was dedicated to my morning time with God I knew it was just to get by.  Kinda like that feeling of having a cup of coffee - you need it in order to survive. That me was me: Surving!  But as I progressed in the book I learned how to be than just a "woman getting by."  He showed me how to be STILL.  Still in my days and not be overworked.  Or to busy for Him.  Busy with schedules, watching tv, ignoring his voice and having a blatant spirit.  Again, I had no idea I was dealing with all of that. 

I want to share a little of what being STILL means to me and I been able to transform my heart/mind.

STILL in my time with Maximus.  Not be on my phone as much and instead embrace our one on one time.  Play, engage, keep it simple and even watch Caillou for the hundredth time.  Especially when the baby comes I know my time will be for the new baby.  It's so easy to get caught up in our phone aka social media.  Also, He showed me to embrace my pregnancy.  Our days are filled and by the end of day I'm able to just relax and bond with baby.   

STILL in my marriage.  Embracing our Love Dare on a daily basis.  Even when my flesh wants to do otherwise. Spend more time together, even if it's enjoying a bowl of ice cream (which we did last night LOL).  Again, it's the simple things. We've been married for nine years and next year we will celebrate our ten year anniversary with a vow renewal.  God has saved our marriage and no better way than celebrating our love!   I never want the butterflies or honeymoon stage to end. So, if having ice-cream or going on a lavish date makes us progress then Lord have your way! 

STILL in Him. Not rushing my praying time.  Listening to his voice and using discernment rather than my gut feeling. Journal my thoughts and prayers.  Simply allow the Holy Spirit to lead me.  

There even times I felt like Mary and Martha. Always working and not feeling recognized.  In reality it was my past insecurities caving in.  Yes, I knew I was appreciated in the home, in my job but instead I was searching for approval in all the wrong places.  Again, see the junk we seem to carry.  BOO!  There is a scripture that changed the whole game plan for me:

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest - Matthew 11:28

Me? I was weary and burden?  I can't be if I'm serving in ministry!   It doesn't matter who you are.  How long who been serving God.  It's a given we get tired!  We have the misconception that as Christians we should do it all.  But that's not what God wants.  I know I have to be reminded that God only gives me what I can handle.  He does not want be to be tired, stressed out and weary.  If I am then how am I going to serve Him? 

So, as you see this book taught me plenty and that's OK!  Pastor Steve Hage says we are all messed up!  As harsh as it sounds we are.  That is why we have to learn, grow and keep pushing forward.  Life is made up of all kinds of mountains. I'm trying to get to the top of having a confident heart in Jesus.  Every day I get higher and higher.  That alone is a blessing. 

How do I get to the top? By not overthinking certain situations, making more time to be a mother, making more time to be alone - running has become my time.  I cherish every mile.  When Max is nap time I use that time to read, clean or simply take a nap.   Us mothers need to take a break!  I'm not sure if we deserve it but it's definitely needed.  I don't like to say "we deserve it" because it sounds selfish.  I would rather make time and embrace it...even if it's just taking a shower.  

I'm not saying that this book has me all perfect.  I'm still growing each day.  But what I will say is this book has made me more confident as a mother and woman in Christ.  I want to be able to testify to others what God has done in my life.  He is simply Amazing! 

In conclusion my prayer is that whomever is reading this will be inspired to pick up the book.  It's a great read!  Let it change you for the better.  Grow in The Lord.  Have a heart for Jesus.  Let Him be your confidant.  

Here's an expert from the book that touched me:

In Christ, you are a woman who is becoming all God created you to be.  Trusting in His power and relying on His promises, you are a woman who is growing - a woman who is becoming more like Jesus each day.  A woman who is not perfect but who is surrending to Gods perfect power and love at work in her. 

Ask yourself: WHAT TYPE OF GODLY WOMAN DO I WANT TO BE?

Strong and Fearless ❤️

Coach Alex's 3 Day Refresh

Yesterday I just finished my 3 Day Refresh from Beachbody.  Since I am a Coach and I believe in their products I wanted to do a detox.  Get rid of any toxins that were floating in my body and in my mind.  

Everyone should do a monthly 3 Day Refresh.  Why?  Because some of us like myself enjoy a burger or two, take a pre workout or other supplements or just simply need a cleanse after a weekend celebration.  

As your Coach I'm here to share my experience.  My 1st day was rough because of the shock of not having my normal foods/routine.  Coach Angela encouraged that I take the day off to rest which meant NO GYM!  It was hard to listen but I humbled myself and rested.  I'm glad I did.  Past few days I slept like a baby...crazy to think toxins were affecting my sleep.  Another positive reason to cleanse. 

As each day progressed it got challenging at times.  For instance my workouts weren't as powerful since I was not taking any supplements.  But I just dug deep in my faith and let God strengthen me up.   The meals weren't bad at all.  I'm thankful that Coach Angela did most of it with me - except the supplements that were provided because she is pregnant.  

Speaking of the provided supplements I wasn't sure what to expect.  But it was simply extra fiber, protein and other goodies that body needed or was lacking.   

When I woke up today and realized I lost 3lbs, my AFTER picture showed my hard work, my immune system feels reignited and my spirit is renewed I would DEF do this again.  In fact I'm committing to do it every month.  

This cleanse is only 3 DAYS - you can eat REAL FOODS and you are not depriving yourself.  Yes, you'll go through moments where you are hungry but that is where you can have snacks such as fruits, veggies and healthy fats.  Any cleanse past 3 days is just TORTURE and especially if it's all liquid based.  Always do your research and have a valid reason to cleanse.  Not just because you want to lose weight.  That is always a given.  But let it be a spiritual journey. 

I pray that my testimony inspires you and that you'll join me on the next round.  In fact I be honored to Coach you through your REFRESH!   

Any questions, please message me. 

Spiritual Refresh

Good Morning and Happy Tuesday!

Back to the grind today - yesterday I just rested in God.  Kept thinking, praying for all that has happened and all that is happening.  As you know we are in the process of moving and we are over the moon excited!  But it's more than just our move.  It's like a big spiritual growth spurt is happening!   Past few days I've been praying and they have been so strong. I'm taking more pride in my marriage - really grasping the meaning of LOVE & RESPECT.  Learning to be a better wife and not just by cooking/cleaning.  But more of a wife through God.  Our Love Dare challenge is a big part of it.   This morning Max decided to wake up at 5am and usually I get grumpy but this time I just laid there with him and thought of all the things I am thankful for as a mother and all the things I want to start doing better at as a mother especial with two. It was so relaxing to my spirit.

Everyday I wake up thankful for my life - not because I have a great career or I get to stay home with my children but thankful how God has saved me from the mess I was in and more.   Maybe I'm just simply growing in my faith.  Maybe something big is going to happen. Maybe I'm just appreciating life a little more each day.   I don't know and I'm just going to wait on Him to reveal it to me. 

I happened to open my devotional this morning and it was fitting to how I been feeling: 

Philippians 1:10 says, “I want you to understand what really matters” (NLT).

What matters in your life? Not acquisition. Life is not about the accumulation of things. He who dies with the most toys still dies. 

Life is not about things. It’s about learning how to love. If at the end of your life you’ve got a giant pile of things but you’re estranged from your wife and kids, you’ve missed the purpose! 

Your purpose is not to live for here and now. You’re storing up for eternity! You’re not building a pile on this side of eternity. You’re building into people and relationships that will matter on that side of eternity. You’re living in light of Heaven. 

That last paraphrase really spoke to me because  I'm always sharing the ups and downs in my life with others.  Maybe this big spiritual growth is me continuously being the light to others? Many have asked when we move will I still do bootcamp and online Coaching and my answer is YES!  We are still working on logistics and such.  But don't worry I'm not going anywhere.  

I don't know and I just can't seem to describe my feelings but what I will say is I AM THANKFUL!  Because I want to continue to grow as a wife, mother and woman of God.  I don't ever want to miss the bus with God.  He's my daily strength.  He's given me my two beautiful children.  He's given me my salvation.  He's giving me hope everyday when I feel I just can't do something.  He's my confident!!!

As I close this blog I just want to encourage you - NEVER miss hearing Gods voice. Don't rush your praying time.  Don't just pray when in need - make it a lifestyle.  Grow your faith everyday because it allows you to be a better person.

Philippians 1-9-11 

Amen ❤️

Celebrate YOU

July has come to an end - what a great month of FAILS & SUCCESSES!   I learned many things about myself, celebrated who I am and looking forward to what lies ahead.

This month I celebrated my 34th birthday and it was very memorable. I took some time these past few days to reflect.  What an AMAZING year I had.   I grew as a mother, as a wife, as a Chrisitan woman and my Beachbody business took off!   Along the way I've met some amazing ladies, helped many gain their life back, my marriage grew and now my family has expanded.  

Of course there were many FAILS.  I made mistakes, I fell on my face, I stumbled, I lost myself for a minute, I gave into my insecurities and I even doubted myself at time.  But through it all one thing still remained: MY FAITH! 

This month I had set a goal to press play on PIYO and run 100 miles.  Well guess what?  That didn't happen!  But what did happen and what I will rejoice is I ran over 33 miles while PREGNANT!  I became a Certified PIYO Instructor and I pressed play 10 times!   That is better than ZERO!  We all have our moments where we are not our best but if we can just remember that it's not a race, we can finish strong. I'm no quitter and even though this pregnancy has been kicking my butt I WILL continue to push through!   I'll rest when I need to.  It's a journey and I want to look back and remember what a beautiful journey it was.  I don't want to be or sound negative.  Life's too short to be anything but that. 

So, as I end this month I am thankful for all my friendships because you ladies have guided me through my tough moments.  I want to thank my family because they have supported me.  I want to thank my PINKS for sticking it through it all. And I want to thank my road blockers because you only drive me to push harder!   

Lastly, I want to thank my husband for loving me for who I am unconditionally!!  

NEVER UNDER ESTIMATE the person you can become!  God has amazing plans for your life!

CHEERS to August!

Strong & Fearless ❤️