It's funny how much junk we carry in our hearts without even knowing it. Even though I was dedicated to my morning time with God I knew it was just to get by. Kinda like that feeling of having a cup of coffee - you need it in order to survive. That me was me: Surving! But as I progressed in the book I learned how to be than just a "woman getting by." He showed me how to be STILL. Still in my days and not be overworked. Or to busy for Him. Busy with schedules, watching tv, ignoring his voice and having a blatant spirit. Again, I had no idea I was dealing with all of that.
I want to share a little of what being STILL means to me and I been able to transform my heart/mind.
STILL in my time with Maximus. Not be on my phone as much and instead embrace our one on one time. Play, engage, keep it simple and even watch Caillou for the hundredth time. Especially when the baby comes I know my time will be for the new baby. It's so easy to get caught up in our phone aka social media. Also, He showed me to embrace my pregnancy. Our days are filled and by the end of day I'm able to just relax and bond with baby.
STILL in my marriage. Embracing our Love Dare on a daily basis. Even when my flesh wants to do otherwise. Spend more time together, even if it's enjoying a bowl of ice cream (which we did last night LOL). Again, it's the simple things. We've been married for nine years and next year we will celebrate our ten year anniversary with a vow renewal. God has saved our marriage and no better way than celebrating our love! I never want the butterflies or honeymoon stage to end. So, if having ice-cream or going on a lavish date makes us progress then Lord have your way!
STILL in Him. Not rushing my praying time. Listening to his voice and using discernment rather than my gut feeling. Journal my thoughts and prayers. Simply allow the Holy Spirit to lead me.
There even times I felt like Mary and Martha. Always working and not feeling recognized. In reality it was my past insecurities caving in. Yes, I knew I was appreciated in the home, in my job but instead I was searching for approval in all the wrong places. Again, see the junk we seem to carry. BOO! There is a scripture that changed the whole game plan for me:
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest - Matthew 11:28
Me? I was weary and burden? I can't be if I'm serving in ministry! It doesn't matter who you are. How long who been serving God. It's a given we get tired! We have the misconception that as Christians we should do it all. But that's not what God wants. I know I have to be reminded that God only gives me what I can handle. He does not want be to be tired, stressed out and weary. If I am then how am I going to serve Him?
So, as you see this book taught me plenty and that's OK! Pastor Steve Hage says we are all messed up! As harsh as it sounds we are. That is why we have to learn, grow and keep pushing forward. Life is made up of all kinds of mountains. I'm trying to get to the top of having a confident heart in Jesus. Every day I get higher and higher. That alone is a blessing.
How do I get to the top? By not overthinking certain situations, making more time to be a mother, making more time to be alone - running has become my time. I cherish every mile. When Max is nap time I use that time to read, clean or simply take a nap. Us mothers need to take a break! I'm not sure if we deserve it but it's definitely needed. I don't like to say "we deserve it" because it sounds selfish. I would rather make time and embrace it...even if it's just taking a shower.
I'm not saying that this book has me all perfect. I'm still growing each day. But what I will say is this book has made me more confident as a mother and woman in Christ. I want to be able to testify to others what God has done in my life. He is simply Amazing!
In conclusion my prayer is that whomever is reading this will be inspired to pick up the book. It's a great read! Let it change you for the better. Grow in The Lord. Have a heart for Jesus. Let Him be your confidant.
Here's an expert from the book that touched me:
In Christ, you are a woman who is becoming all God created you to be. Trusting in His power and relying on His promises, you are a woman who is growing - a woman who is becoming more like Jesus each day. A woman who is not perfect but who is surrending to Gods perfect power and love at work in her.
Ask yourself: WHAT TYPE OF GODLY WOMAN DO I WANT TO BE?
Strong and Fearless ❤️
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