Let Your Spirit Overwhelm Me

Today has not been the best day for me. Overslept, woke up with a headache and just feeling overwhelmed.  So much is happening (new baby and new home) and we are all growing.  As I was putting Max down for his nap he was so sweet.  Just kept hugging me, giving me the kisses and all I could do is embrace his sweetness.  It was like God was using Max to tell me everything is going to be just fine.   I could feel my spirit being stirred up and God telling me I AM HERE!   You do not have to carry your burdens.  Give them to me. 

I came into Max's room, put my earbuds in and just started reading my bible.  As I was reading all I could do is weep.  A sense of calamity started to flow especially in my heart.  A scripture popped out:

And we know that God cause everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them - Romans 8:28

How simple as that sounds it really opened my eyes!  Of course all these big changes are happening and He will not let me go through it alone.  It's all good!   

But easier said than done right?!  It's that daunting word: FEAR!  Fear of failure.  Fear I'm not worthy of his goodness.  I know I'm stronger than that!  But it is a daily struggle for me.  Most days I'm FEARLESS but today I'm not feeling so fearless.  I know it's only temporary and I'll finish this race.  

So as I write this blog out nothing but tears flow, asking God to continue to strengthen me up and in hopes that maybe SOMEONE out there is feeling overwhelmed.  And it's OK!  We are not perfect.  We all have our days....even me.  I understand I'm a public figure in my community and many count on me but I'm here to tell you I stumble too my friends.  I fall short.  I have insecurities.  I'm vulnerable. I don't need to front and act like my life is perfect and pretend I don't have bad days.  HA!  I do...I just choose to smile through my storms.  

So, yes today is not the way I wanted it go but I'm thankful God put this in my way.  Because he's simply strengthening me up for what's to come.  As overwhelmed I am, I am also very blessed.  Blessed because I get to share my journey with you.  Blessed because I know someone is praying for me.  Blessed because I have two beautiful children.  Blessed because God has a home for my family. Blessed because I have God in my life and I don't have to go through this alone ❤️

I plan on spending the rest of my day resting in Him.  I do not need to worry.  I can simple rejoice and give Him all the Glory.  Thank You Lord!

Be Your Kind of Beautiful!