Wide awake on this new day we are given! Last night I went to bed early but partly because I read my personal development. A new nightly routine I'm slowly getting used too - More time in my books and less FACEBOOK HA! I'm sure it'll change once Baby Noah arrives but like anything else we adjust right?
Max woke up around 5:00am wanting MAMA - as he would say. Usually Alex gets him but I felt in my spirit to take over. Usually I'm crawling into his toddler bed and fall right back asleep but this morning was different. God was nudging on my heart reminding me Max will always need/want his MAMA. He's going to want my comfort. As simple as that sounds there is a lot of meaning behind it. I simply smiled and said THANK YOU LORD!
I grew up and even into my adult life seeking approval and it tore me apart at times but here I am a mother of two boys and sure I could have asked Alex to take over but I wanted Max to know MAMA is here. I never want my boys to feel rejected, lonely or I get too busy to cuddle with them.
As I lay here writing this, Max is snoring away, Baby Noah is moving galore and I'm reminded of how fortunate I am to be living out the ministry of motherhood. Motherhood to me is about enjoying everyday even with toys everywhere, a knudging toddler, sleepless nights and cups of coffee that never get finished. Sure I long for nights of good rest, more mommy time and to wake up everyday to a clean home but that's unrealistic. Motherhood is meant to be lived and embraced as a beautiful mess with everlasting memories.
Soon my world will be changed for the better. The Lord knows my heart, He will provide my needs and give me the strength to balance and overcome. Am I fearful of having two boys under two? No because I know God only gives me what I can handle. I'll be the imperfect mom, I'm sure I'll make mistakes but at the end of it all I'll be stronger. I'll celebrate! I'll rejoice! I'll cry! I'll grow! I'll fall short! I'll ALWAYS make the best of everyday.
My devotional this morning was fitting and I want to share a piece that really ministered to me:
Experiencing enjoyment in our souls is vitally important to our physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health. Proverbs 17:22 says, "A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing, but a broken spirit dries up the bones." It is God's will for us to enjoy life! Now it is time to decide to enter into the full and abundant life that God wills for us. Joy and enjoyment are available just as misery is available. Righteousness and peace are available and so are condemnation and turmoil.
Today I'm choosing to enjoy life! We have a baby shower on my inlaws side and today we will celebrate Baby Noah. Most importantly honor The Lord and give Him thanks.
Wherever you are in your journey just know we have two choices. My prayer to those that are reading this is they choose JOY! Celebrate today. Make better choices for your family. Embrace the challenges. Pray over your children. Most importantly grow your relationship with The Lord.
Deuteronomy 30:19
